In His Time

Ecclesiastes 3

¹To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

²A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

³A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

⁴A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

⁵A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

⁶A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

⁷A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

⁸A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

⁹What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?

¹⁰I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

¹¹He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

Wow wee.. Its been soooooo long since I last blog.. Well, mainly coz i was in Kenya, and after that, all the problems i did left behind *bish* me right in the face the minute i touched down.

So tired.. But THANK GOD!! Coz He sustaineth me :) Thank God too that mummy's getting better, in fact so well today Yvonne got the taste of being me for about half an hour.. Haha.. Mummy gave her usual "I dislike Christian for certain reasons" speech. I almost fell asleep, sorry la, heard it too many times, and i was really really really tired... Well, as much as I kinda give up pestering her with the gospel, im just praying and handling it to God.

Ahh.. Seriously thinking about quitting, Kenya has like double chop plus guarantee what God wants me to do.... FULL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, was looking through Shelia's photo albums on facebook, and came across one that says time of our lives. Hmm.. Thought it to be pretty fun!! BUt then hor, how come the funness die down when i enter Galilee lei...

I thought, maybe everyone has grown up? And started facing the problems that we always prayed one day we wont face coz we dont want to end up like the adults around us? I dont know. I guess that's probably that.

Then i thank God again, for making me go through the "adults only" problems when i was in secondary school, for making me realise that life's just too short to think about these problems, because they will just constantly be there, irritating the "whatever you want to call it" out of us, and we are just gonna keep searching for solutions to solve it EVEN AFTER we prayed and just told God we trust You. Hmm... Random ranting, ignore me la.

Was just sharing with Yvonne, somehow, after the really tough times in Sec School & Poly, i started keeping my "child likeness" heart. I think many know what i mean, its not about being childish. Its about trusting your Daddy. I wonder how many is really trusting Him that much.

I just realise i fell in love with another song!! So amazing!! I shall type the lyrics at the end of the blog. Right now, just want to tell everyone *cricket sings* to read Eccl chapter 3. Its a good reminder, how are we exactly spending our time!! Haha, I dont know about you, but i want to live it to the fullest for God. I know i will never love the way I want to love, but I can love a Christian love! I know the worst things Mum will and could say about me, I will still love her to bits, coz the fact she went through 18 hours work through almost half her life to support me and my sisters is God given gift.

I will choose to love the Lord my Jesus, even though its hard being "suan" for being a Christian, its worth coz He did more than any friend could have done for me. For every strip, every wound He bore, Lord, You are the King yet You suffer like a criminal. For the nail that bore right through your hands and feet, Lord, thank You.

Please forgive me for the times I belittled You with the problems i think You cannot solve, and I took things in my hands, screwed it up big time. Thank You for still being gracious, taking it from my hand and made it good.

Forgive me for the times I tried to justify the "love" feelings I felt for the girl, and breaking Your heart, when You said so clearly its wrong. Thank You for holding me each time I cried for not being able to love the way I want to.

Forgive me for the times I dont understand why the mum I love wouldnt accept You. Forgive me for thinking You wont make it right for me. Thank You for the fact that I am still very much alive, and kicking, for the power and enabling You have given me to minister Your word.

Lord Jesus, I am nothing. I am worth nothing. Sometimes, I dont even understand whats the worthiness of saving me. But I thank You Lord, You still did, You did saved me.

Lord I ask that You grant Your disciples (yes, including my friends) patience, understanding. We're young, so young Lord, sometimes, oh no, most of the times, we forgot who You are.

K, i shall stop writing, coz its way past my bedtime hee... almost 11pm!! K anyway, here's the lyrics as promised.

You Are (Mark Roach)

You are Holy, You are Faithful
You are Saviour, You are Friend
You are all I'll ever need
Lord, You are

And You are every question's answer
You are every reason why
You are moving, You are still
Lord, You are

CHorus:
And You are the Lord on High,
And You are the Way, the Truth, the Life
And You are the Word made flesh
You are the bright Morning Star
You are

You are Glory, Hallelujah
You are hope of peace on earth
You are Alpha and Omega
You are

You are Comfort, You are Refuge
You are love Personified
and You are Kindness and Compassion
You are
(Chorus, out-tro)

Out-tro
(You are my God and my King
You are the words that I sing
You are the reason I made this offering) X 3

(Chorus)

You are the Word made flesh
You are the Bright Morning Star
You are

(Out-tro X2)