Sigh...........

Psalm 51:10
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

I feel so handicapped..

And tired all the time..

Maybe this is a humbling experience for me.. But Father, could you possibly grant me people who can help?

Asking for help is one thing. Asking for help and seeing things not done is another thing.
Asking for help and seeing things not done, and getting frustrated about it is another thing.

how lei..............

I eat like a mouse, i sleep like a mouse.. Soon my size will be like a mouse.... My clothes are getting baggier (if there's such a word) haha..

The most amazing thing is.. some people actually dont know i've been unwell for the past month and currently.. DIAO..

Weird.... If people from all the way of the Land of Smiles knows im been in a bad shape, how come people around me, who claims to know me dont..

OOOOOOOO.. i think my "youngest" sister habit is coming out.. *points to self* attention seeker!!!!!

All i know is, when my chest aches i need to sit down..
If we are conversing halfway, and frown, its not coz you said something wrong, its coz the pain came round and said hi.

If i talk to you halfway, and pause suddenly, its coz i need to breathe, and yes, the pain came round to said hi again.

If i just not talking, please dont talk to me. YES, pain said hi.

If im sitting down with eyes close, i am sleeping...

Thank you =)

Thank God for friends who ran around with me, brought me to check ups, brought dinner with me, which i struggle to finish, so sorry, it really tasted good, but i just cant eat...

Thank God for provision.. Hated the hospital visits, cost so much, and still have to face irritating doctors who made my condition worst.. URGH.. Anyway, thank God..

Please make the pain bearable...