Clining to the Cross

Psalm 46:10-11
10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.
11 The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.



My soul is weak, my heart is numb,
I cannot feel,
yet my hope is found in You,
Jesus You will never fail..

I remembered how these lyrics struck a chord in my heart when Jasmine first showed lent me the cd. Immediately i fell in love with the song.

Yes, often times, a lot of times, i always feel like that..
Is it because I stay alone?

Lately i just dont feel like doing anything in church, i feel so stretched and strained. I feel like im being forced to do things, to feel things I dont want to..

I know, who can forced me if i dont want.

The prob is, who hears my "no" at all..

Argh.. God... Help.. I dont want to spend less time with You.. Yet, its getting more and more harder to wake up early to meet You, to worship You, to know You..

I love You Lord.. And I know You wont let me bear things beyond what I can bear..

I really feel so tired....

Help me Jesus... Help...

Why create festive seasons for family to reunite when there's no reunion?

Is it Your will to be done that my family cannot reunite,
I dont understand now Lord, but I know You are in control for sure.

I just dislike festive seasons. Even my own birthday.

Yes, I know.. Most of you would just think i'm indulging in my self pity.
Honestly, I dont care what you think. I just need your prayers.

I know You came as a two edged sword, whoever loves You, will be set apart.
Yes I know, i just didnt realise its so painful to bear...

Lord, help me.. Two more days before school starts, before everything gets going.. I need strength from You. Teach me to be discipline, to be appreciative.

I tired... Why do i have so much tears to shed? If only tears were made of oil, i would be super slim by now..

Help me, Daddy.. Please