I know....

And when you are tried, and purified,

you shall come forth as gold.

.. that God never makes mistakes.

i have officially embarked on another phase of my journey.

Down with inflammed ribs first, then damaged chest muscles,

now with type 2 diebetics, and main concerned, weird heart problem.

Apparently the left side of my heart is bigger than normal, which is at risk of lots of things.

And the next time i visit the doc, it'll be a and e.

Well, just when i thought there's nothing else God can do to me.

He chose the thing i depended on most. Physical strength.

And i didnt realized how strong i was, till i lost it.

Now, my one job needs few people to do it. And it's causing more of a heartache for me.

I dont know what God wants to do.

I cant stand crying, coz my chest and heart literally hurts like i just ran 4.2 click.

As much as i asked for help, its the people i love that disappoints me.

I am looking forward to the day when i get the revelation why God allows me to go through this.

And above all that i know,

God's grace is sufficient for me..