Journey(ing)

Colossian 3:23
Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,

I remembered my instructor, Beng, telling me about how most artists start their life work. Its usually a constant theme. I thought, hmm, how true. Well, he gave me tons of example then, now i cant remember any, but i do recall, happily returning home, and starting a series of poems (so call ones la).

It used to be "Same Time, same places". I always end up being at a certain place, at a certain time, and so many feelings, different thoughts felt during these times. So much was penned down, blogged. But now, as i look back (www.xanga.com/cs8_3) , most of the entries were suicidal, blasphemy, selfish and vulgar thoughts.

Made me wondered. Does all my friends (so called) really missed the old me?

HELLLLLLLOOOOOO?!

ahem..

Anyway, well, now my photo entries in facebook, as well as here. I guess the common theme is "Journey-ing".

Yup, life's been up, and down, sometimes sub zero.. dragging my fat body, burning my fats. Anyway, enough of the vivid picture, don't want to be spoiling your appetite, haha.

I loved the new me, coz God found me. I have no idea how my friends loved the old me, but hey, sorry, this is it. The new me. Yes! Many many many times, I am still making mistakes, pissing people off, crying when people bully me, sometimes i thought of the worst thoughts. I hated it when i made the mistake, or i chose to sin.

I know I hurt Jesus, each time i did all that. and so! I try and try, not by my own might, but by the Spirit of God. =)

I sincerely hope you get to know the new me, i love you all. I really do. Even though, for some for you, life's ticking minute by minute, second by second, i still love you.

Goes the same for me, i have no idea when God will call me home, but i sure want to hear Him say, "Well done, good and faithful servant!"

If im working for the US president, I am sure you guys are dying to know me, contact me, asking me how it is like working for him, telling all your other friends, HEY, I know HER LEI!!!!! Well..

I am working for someone much more better than that.

He's the King of kings, Lord of Lords.
He's the Alpha and the Omega,
the Beginning and the End,
Best of all, He's my best Friend.

Now, will you be dying to contact me, asking me how it is like to be working for Him, will you even include me in your conversations?

I just scare most of you away again, didn't I? That's weird, you're willing to spend more time when it's someone of high status on the earth, and runs away when it's Someone of universal status.

How insignificant is that focus?

If i told you, hey, the PM of Singapore knows your name, has been thinking about you everyday, wanting to dine with you at every meal, wanting to always facebook you,
will you feel honoured?

If I told you, hey, Jesus knows your name, thinking about you everyday, wanting to be with you ALWAYS, and above all, He did the most sacrifical thing, He died for you,
will you still feel honoured?

It's seldom nowadays, thinking about thoughts like these.

With the first light shinning through,
You held my hand,
walked with me, guiding me.
Watched me stumble, again
And again. Sometimes, You cried.
You forgave, You love.
You picked me up,
Lifted me, grant me strength.
Watched me fall, again.
Disciplined me
Oh Lord, yes i do,
I do enjoy my endless journeys with You.